Life Can Be SO “Overwhelming”: How I Tame It
Now that I’m back to just having a single source of income, my adjunct position, I immediately have a crazy sense of pressure to “get back earning”, and “get a job” or “create a job” or “hit it big with day trading”, as soon as I study up a little more on the Dummies Guide to Day Trading. Then I won’t have to work or find a job, lol. Since day trading isn’t my go to, I’m more of a horse racing gambler if we’re admitting ways that we gamble with our money, I’ll have to keep up the job search and income stream creation. Man, does it feel overwhelming. I’ve had trouble sleeping at nights, trouble staying asleep, and just a hard time turning the old brain down from 11 to a reasonable 3 or 4. My weight has even started coming back from a lot more stress eating. I’m aware of it, I just don’t care at this stage, lol.
My brain is constantly thinking about next steps, potential income opportunities, creating those opportunities, and also job hunting in the meantime. Oh, and then there’s the aspect of adding in family and people I care about and having not just time, but mental free time to hang out with them. It’s not the same if I’m laying next to someone and talking and sharing thoughts and feelings when my brain is anywhere but right there. That’s when I know I have to stop and handle it before it turns into a “tsunami of worry”. Here’s how I’ve been dealing with reigning those feelings in.
